slightly lost.

I had hoped my first post from after this weekend would be one of such elation. I was very wrong. I will start with Mini-Town though. It was absolutely amazing, completely different from when I went as a delegate in 8th grade, but still so wonderful. I met a lot of great people and got closer with so many I hadn't seen or talked to in about 4 years. My discussion group was so awesome, seeing the kids open up and be willing to let me, a perfect stranger, into their lives was the coolest thing. I was willing to see my flaws and strengths and how I can be a change in the world. I really will try to be a better person especially after hearing the "I statements" from the others at the end of the activities. Sadly after the hugs and tears I was hoping to go home to open arms and "tell me everything's." It wasn't anything of the sort.

While I was gone, my mom decided to "clean" my room. Clean is an understatement. I would say rummage or destroy, those are better terms. She found my journal and read it. I write literally everything in there and surprisingly it wasn't at Mini Town with me, which I still can't understand. But anyway, there was a lot written and I'm grounded for a very long time. For once I'd rather not go into detail about why, but I am. I made mistakes and wrote things I probably shouldn't have, but I never expected my mom to invade my privacy like that. I will deal with the consequences of my actions all of spring break at least. I have no computer, no phone, no leaving the house pretty much. I can do this. I will try very hard to blog, like SO hard, but I can't promise anything.