fighting it.

I've posted this picture before, but today, this week, it seems ever so fitting. I get criticized often for being over dramatic and exaggerating constantly. It's true. In my life, little things that go wrong seem like HUGE things to me in the giant scheme of my mess called life. I have a very narrow mindset. I never truly put into perspective that my problems are miniscule compared to the troubles others have even people I'm close with. When something doesn't go my way, because of them, I immediately blame them, not taking into account the situations and burdens they're carrying.

We all have issues in our lives, but each of us believe our issues are bigger than the issues of someone else. These cannot even be compared because some lives are full of tragedy and hurt, so something like not having a date to prom is like no big deal. But to me, it's like the end of the world. I've been lucky enough to have very little pain in my life, but little things to you, are things I blow out of proportion because of how they affect me. They're like 50ft waves over-taking my very little fishing boat. I'm sorry, but that's my personality.

I've also seen how quickly people shut you out when they're hurting. As humans, we crave connections with others especially people we trust. I am baffled. Completely stumped. I've cried. Hoping and waiting for you to come around. I'm praying, really hard. Maybe you can resolve everything alone and get through it all alone. If you can(if there's anybody that can it's you), that's great, I'm really proud of you. That doesn't change how it's breaking my heart being so disconnected from you. You're not alone. I understand this is how you operate, I do. I shut down too. I know we're not going through the same strife, mine may seem totally pointless and stupid to you, but it's mine. All I can say is I'm praying for you and we love you more than you know.

This weekend is going to be so fantastic. I'm so insanely excited for Mini-town & Spring Break. Mini-town is going to be such an escape. Speaking of, I won't be blogging till Monday, probably with a fresh outlook which is usually the outcome. I need the change in me because of so many unresolved things, maybe I will be able to figure out what I'm supposed to do with them.