A lot happened, a lot changed, lots of high's and low's. I was going to make a list, but decided the list wouldn't really describe the moments that took place this summer. I graduated, which I truly realized was the end of the end of the beginning. I turned 18 and got the best present I could have ever been given, Trey, forever. :) My best friend was in a car accident which shook up our relationship big time, but we bounced back stronger than ever. I lost friends due to fights and immaturity. I got some back and said goodbye to one who headed off to Texas for school. I got fed up with work wishing I could find something new. Old friends basically family came and stayed for 10 days giving me a break from all the crap and drama. I got Coop, what a crazy lovable monster. I made many mistakes, but learned from them too. I think I've finally reached the point that I'm ready to go back, no matter how nervous I am.
It was by far the best summer of my life. Change was so good for me. I can't really see what it's in the future, for this year, for this semester, for these first few days even. I'm scared of drifting from Trey because of band. I spent most of yesterday crying thinking about it. He's been at band camp all week 9 am to 10 pm everyday. I've hardly seen him and it's been torture. I just keep wondering how our conflicting schedules, mine working and school, and his school and band will allow us time together. I spent freshman spring, sophomore, junior, and part of senior year being on the back burner, only second best to a commitment. Supporting someone is not the problem because if I love them I'll support them no matter what, but it's just coming down to how much I matter and mean to them. That's what hardest for me to grasp. I think I took this summer for granted, seeing Trey almost every day, letting moments just pass us by. Now this semester we're going to be struggling just to have moments. I don't know what to do. I really don't.
3 comments:
i just saved that picture from post secrettt :)
I'm going through the exact same thing with my boyfriend. You will be surprised how you find ways to be together when it seems impossible. You will be even more surprised how much your relationship grows from the time apart. You make it work. Stay strong and good luck with school! :)
Emily - Of course you did. Copy cat sisterface :)
Stefanie - That just made my day. Thank you so much for your kind words of inspiration. :)
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