“Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live.”

I had to vent a little and hey what's my blog without a little indirect speaking to someone who needs to hear what I want to say, but can't. :) So here's a new ten. YML (yay my life, my version of fml)

1. I think rooming together next year will be marvelous. I'm so glad we've become such close close close friends. You're such a freaking sweetheart.

2. You're an ass. You regret dating me? K cool. But good luck with my best friend. Douche move. ha. You think you're better than me because I've made mistakes and that's obvious no wonder you're blocked in every aspect on my facebook. I'm glad I realized who was right for me. I hated being fake.

3. Come home. :( I miss senior year before you left us. Everything is falling apart now.

4. Thank you for being my rock this past week. You're a good listener with great advice. I love you so much. :)

5. Blahhhh just tell me what you're doing, why we're drifting, and that you're gonna leave me. I need to hear it now, as much as I don't want to. I love you and miss you terribly.

6. I worry about you more than I can even explain. It scares me that if something happened I wouldn't be able to do anything being so far away. I can't wait till we can see you again.

7. Please be my big. Please please let them let you take me. I'll probs cry so hard if you don't get me. :( :(

8. I dislike you so much. I wish you'd leave my boyfriend alone. I wish you'd get a clue. I wish you never did what you did to me. I wish you never talked to me. I wish we were never friends. I wish I was allowed to text you and bitch you out. I wish I could just punch you or allow my boyfriend too like he wants to. I wish you never changed mine and trey's relationship. You're a pathological liar and karma's a bitch. Have super fun sign flipping d-bag.

9. As weird as this is I sometimes imagine what your hugs are like because I'm sure they'd be just what I needed especially now. I want to meet you, I truly do. I love you and miss you often :(

10. I've waited for this day for so long, the day when we could be civil and talk kindly to each other. It's weird nonetheless, but I feel like we've come leaps and bounds. You're still an amazing friend and I hope we can continue to repair of our relationship. This change is for the better, I'm so glad we've both grown up.

“Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts. Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Don’t waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long and, in the end, it’s only with yourself.”
—Mary Schmich

Sorry this was so angry and harsh. I have a lot of things on my mind and I felt like so much needed to be said. Call me a bitch, I'll say I know, but don't point fingers unless your hands are clean.