Everyone keeps telling me senior year is the most fun year and blah blah blah. Like seriously I hear it from everywhere and everyone when they ask what grade I'm in. But slowly I've come to realize, it's been one of my least favorites, almost as bad as 7th. I yearn for change, for new, for different. I think that is because I've never spent four years in the same school ever. I've become more emotional and whiney and dependent and it SUCKS. I never like relying on someone else to make my days worthwhile.
I struggle to get up in the morning. I hate putting any effort into school, like AT ALL. I just keep counting down the months till I leave. I've met and got closer with a lot of great people this year, but for what, to know I probably won't ever talk to them after graduation. That is for the good and for the bad I guess, just depends on the person haha. I'm trying to savor this year and enjoy everyday with the current pleasures such as playing at the park with schnook and eating out 24/7 with emily. Those things I will miss and will be hard to live without.
This year is not all that it is cracked up to be, maybe if I would've been a lot more outgoing in highschool in general, my opinion would be different. There's a few things that might turn my opinion around or further prove my point: Choir trip to Disneyland, Spring Break, Mini-town counseling?, and Prom. I'm sorry for being so pessimistic when I'm so blessed to be experiencing senior year at all, but I really desperately want Graduation, Summer, my 18th, and maybe meeting my bestfriend in VA :)
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