the mean reds.

I want you. Why is it so hard for me to just say it? Sometimes I feel so much like Holly Golightly it's ridiculous. Today I have the mean reds, for all of you non Breakfast at Tiffany's people, it's when you suddenly feel scared and you don't know what you're even scared of. I keep having the notion maybe in life we don't belong to someone else. But it's you that makes me still have faith that certain people are meant to be together even though I don't know if that's how you feel. I've tried to step out of my box, my cage, my comfort zone for you. I want to prove to you that I'm just as willing because I love you. I don't want to blame this on new year's, but I know everything would be different if we would've been together that night. I don't want to wait, but I will and I think you know that. I honestly don't know what it will be like tomorrow when I desperately want to kiss you and have to pretend we're only best friends. I can do it and today I will get over the mean reds and collage or whatever.

"For once in my life, I'm at a loss of words.
The truth of the matter is... being with you was the only time I have ever been happy."
- Cruel Intentions